littlest things

was in a bad mood today..
but i cant think of any reasons apart from being hungry and tired.
stressed out? perhaps.

this proves that my EQ is really low.
i am always trying to learn the ways to deal with stress…but i thought simply having relaxation is not enough. it’s because you can’t really enjoy yourself to the most simply THOUGHT that you are relaxing yourself, essays are still essays, they still exist until you K.O. them. simply having relaxation is just a way to escape. but what i mean is not being industrious for 24-hours. people are not machine, we have flesh. what is important is to learn how to DEAL with it. stress somehow motivates people to work. stress can be a good thing, but not too much.

i am now learning from those who can still keep a big smile on their face under stress. there’re many friends with happy faces surrounding me :)* i just met one today who’s always so positive so cheerful all the time tho i dont know her well 😛 
to be frank i dont like people who grumbles a lot..(so please bear this in my mind – i dont think people would like it in the other way round) it makes me feel so negative when you and I have to listen to those repeating grumbles for thousand times. sometimes i am doing that too, because you need support, you want to gain sympathy from your friends, you want people to reckon your problem. but this is not the way…dont make the ‘ai’ sounds too often but turns it into a ‘hee’ or ‘ha’…it doesn’t mean that you have to show your happy faces all the time cus’ everyone has ups and downs, but it’s the attitude that matters. (hope it could help some of my frds anyway :P)

okay bullshit yuen :S it has been a tough week. time to have a good & long sleep! zi yin wake up! 😀 



i always enjoy the long talk with my father where i can put away my integrity, listen, learn and share. what i need is true words from someone who know me well.

we all need guidance in our life. no one are born to know everything. even genius needs guidance. throughout years, what we have encountered in life are shaping our personality and it’s on going. i always reflect on myself. there is time that i just cant bear ideas that are conflicting with what I value a lot. there is time when I question about my conscience and my thoughts. yet, i am trying hard to accept, to convince myself, and trying not to be stubborn because you cant deny that you are living in a world of complexity. you live your own life. 

didnt update my recent life for long! we all cant imagine it’s already mid-november, now i have the feeling that I WILL miss school life for sure. i have began my first ever laboratory work (dont laugh). i deal with chemical (HCl), observing chemical reaction when amazement, and do nothing when i am watching those chemical bursting out crazily when they react so hard with the organic matter. and now the soil sample have been freeze-dried blah-blah-blah..picture paints a thousand words, that’s what I am busying with these days.
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but still, i start to feel the pressure whenever i thought about what to do next. aww today i try to make a list of what-to-do-next so as to make things more organised, and its really scare me off. Good luck to everyone :S

I am blessed to have the freedom of choice, to be independent, to be here. To be honest I am quite happy with what I have been through. Yet it’s vague to me, I am still glad to be who I am in such new world, but not what I have to be.

November is not as devil as I have expected. I still manage to have time for lunch, movies, yoga practise, work out, teas, hanging out. Trying to think back how crazy it is in October, I feel that my life back then was in a mess, in a way that I got no spare time to reflect on myself.

Time is never a luxury to me. Time allows me to see the world in different ways. Personally I don’t like the feeling when you are totally occupied by stuffs that are not important to your life – it’s a waste of time. So why bother how others think of you?